A Window into the Soul

Why hello there! Okay, so I’m not going to rant about politics. I am SICK and TIRED of all the HATIN’ that’s going around. Seriously guys, can’t we act like adults here? Okay, rant over. On the other hand, I have recently acquired a great deal of time. Yay for me! But, saying that makes me think of a song that I’m singing in Choir called No Time. This song is superbly beautiful. I really can’t describe how beautiful it is and no youtube clip can show you what I experience when I get to be a part of singing it. It’s ephemeral. Surreal. Gorgeous beyond all comparison. When we’re singing, I just get so caught up in the beauty of it, and, according to my friend, I get super expressive. Like, he tells me everyday that I was being really expressive (the fact that other people aren’t letting the joy translate to their face is what makes me special, that’s why it’s significant). But yeah. “Beautiful” doesn’t describe it well enough.

Now, I’m a writer. You figure out your art form by what you can create, and not by what you copy or appreciate. I am a writer, because words come naturally to me so that I can create with them. I’m not trying to be cocky here and say that I can create and blah blah blah, but words are my medium, so to speak. I am not a musician. But I love music. And not just in that cheesy “I know more song lyrics than everything I’ve learned in all my school years combined” way that you see on facebook. I love music because, while I may not be able to create it, I can feel it. Art forms are about expressing the soul. And the really cool thing about music is that I have no idea how people are able to express their soul through it. But they do! And that is SO COOL! It’s so foreign to me, but I still get the “message”, so to speak.

Earlier today, I was listening to the wonderful tribute by Hans Zimmer, “Aurora”. This song is said to express what words cannot: the loss and pain felt by all who heard about the tragic Aurora shooting incident in the summer. The pain and loss, but also the hope. The hope that the world isn’t so bad after all. The hope that we can rebuild and be better than we were before. It is not easy to express that hope. But Hans Zimmer did it. The musician who wrote “No Time” also expresses that hope. The song goes, “Rise, oh fathers, rise. Let’s go meet ’em in the skies. We will hear the angels singing in that morning.” AH! Words and music coming together in a blissful reaction that creates such a surreal feeling. GAHH this is difficult to express. See. Sometimes words aren’t enough. Sometimes only music can express what we feel. Or, it might be a water color. Or a dance. Or theatre. Art forms express the soul. Give me pen and paper, but give my sister a brush and canvas. Or give Hans Zimmer an empty sheet of music. We are communicating creatures. And because we are all human and feel similar things, art does another thing: it goes beyond just us. It transcends our own personal, exact feelings on the subject and instead touches on the vast database of human emotions. But only if it is real. In a world jaded by lies and ¬†half-truths, we find solace in the true expressions of WHO WE ARE. When people express from the heart, it is real. And other people can see that. We recognize the truth for what it is. Art is truly a window into the soul.

Have a lovely night,

Epylle Spydre


The Luckiest People in the World

There is a musical called “Funny Girl”, and in this musical, there’s a song called “People”. Sung by the fabulous Barbra Streisand, there’s a line that goes, “People who need people are the luckiest people in the world” (here’s a link to it if you want: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9-8gn6vGu_w ).

This song so cool, because it’s SO true. There are so many love songs out in the world just trying to articulate what it is to be in love or the person they love. But this song says it all because it gets to the root of humanity: people who need people are the luckiest people in the world. Another part of the song goes, “A feeling, deep in your soul, says you were half, now you’re whole. No more hunger and thirst, but first be a person who needs people….” It’s amazing, because it doesn’t use too many words to convey the message: people who need people (aka love them) are the luckiest people in the world because they don’t need anything more than love (“no more hunger and thirst”). That is basically what all other love songs add up to.

But this song goes beyond mere romance; it goes, as I said earlier, to the heart of humanity. I believe I said this in a different blog post, but we are creatures of love. From the very beginning, we have looked for love, for companions. We long for that sense of unity, that feeling that “says you were half, now you’re whole”, and I know that unity-seeking to be true because of my choice of friends.

I am a shy person, yes Bethany, it’s true. I’m introverted by nature, and a lot of times, I just want to be by myself and read a nice book. So, it takes me awhile to find real friends. But you know, it’s a bit difficult to find friends when you don’t even know yourself. That was my real predicament, but after I started going to my sciency/researchy nerd magnet school, I realized that I was a nerd. Yeah I know it sounds weird, but it’s true. Freshman year was my turning around year, and I know who I am now (it’s okay, you don’t have to worry about me having an identity crisis). But some of my dearest friends in the world are my fellow nerds.

I also had the great great honor of going to the Anglican Convocation of North America’s Provincial Assembly, which is basically just a bunch of Anglicans getting together for a meeting. For me, the most amazing thing about this was being able to meet other youth anglicans, PEOPLE LIKE ME, from all over the country (plus Canada). A lot of times, it’s hard being a God-loving teenager, because it’s easy to feel different and weird, as if no one understands you. But these people understood me, and I feel so blessed to have met them.

I chose those two examples, because they illustrate the two parts of how I identify myself: a nerdy Jesus freak. Yup, that’s me.

Sorry for going off on those tangents. The point is that people need people. We long for unity and the chance to belong with at least one person. Love is something uniquely human because we were made in the image of a God whose very name is Love. But a lot of people don’t realize that love is what we’re searching for. They go around, pursuing wealth, fame, and petty pleasures. But the people who realize that we’re lovers by nature, the people “who need people”, those ones are the luckiest people in the world.